Don't think about changing the world

Who am I to change the world if I cannot even help myself?
Changes start with you.

Sometimes "because you can" is a good reason

My motivation? I am ridiculously good, if I can't do it, no one else can.

Drawing strength from negativity

How do you kill a man who is already dead inside?

My strength does not come from mindless optimism or motivation; my strength comes from the fact that I am already dead. Each day that passes, everything that I achieve is already a bonus.

When you try to put me down, you can't. I can't go any lower.

Nobody understands you

Nobody understands you, but it's not their fault, neither is it yours.
Different people just have different perspective. Period.

I can't force others to see the world the way that I do.
I will face my world alone, and hope that others will never need to spend a moment in that world.

Feeling lonely?

What you're missing isn't her. It's the companionship of having someone to hold.

Don't fight pointless battles

Don't clash ego with someone you cannot win.
Smart alec responses can have disastrous consequences.

People don't like to hear the truth

People don't like it when you point out that they are stupid.
People don't like to hear the truth, they like to hear what they want to hear.

We accept the truth which we choose to believe.

I do because I can

I don't know what I'm doing, I do because I can.
I'm hoping that my life would make sense of itself.

既然決定了一個人走，爲何還一直依依不捨，猶豫不決？

I guess it's really hard to be contented with life when you don't know what you are looking for.

This is how we do things

Right or wrong doesn't matter. Best Practice doesn't matter. "In the long run" doesn't matter.

Ignore the underlying problem, don't care about the root cause, continue to apply break-fix patches to alleviate the surface issues.

When new problems arise, just keep applying surface break-fix patches to un-problemize them.

Because it's not your job to care, you are not being paid or recognized to do things beyond your own bowl. Why puke blood to do the right thing?

It's not as simple as switching it off

So much misery, that dying would actually be a blessing to me. But how do I drop off this load of misery?

Could my problems be self-created? Perhaps.

But how do you un-create them when these feels so real right now?

Do not concern yourself with things which are outside your circle of influence. Yet these things have a habit of concerning you.

Even if you manage to avoid them once or twice, they will come back to you again during the quiet nights where your mind starts to wonder.

要如何放下？

Be the bigger person

Remember that sarcasm never helps. Don't win a battle just to soothe your ego, and make everything in the future difficult.

Even in the event where it is a clear win in the argument, do not insult your opponent. Be the bigger person, let your opponent lose graciously.

Never ever offend someone just to win, it is never beneficial in the long run.

萬事留一綫，日後好相見。

Have some pride

It's common to want to feel good about yourself.

Unfortunately, the way to do it may not always be an honorable one. Don't put others in an awkward position just to boost your own ego. Putting others down to lift yourself up is despicable.

If you want some pride, do and achieve something worthy of your ego.

Move to the other side

There is always 2 sides (or more) to things. As a natural skeptic, it has always been easy to point out problems, dangers, risks to anything.

Let's have a little change, since it is so convenient to identify the negativity, it should be just a simple thing to flip it around and look at the other side.

Make the effort to switch. I will be the one who sees the silver lining in every dark cloud.

Clear vision

Feeling depressed? Feeling low? Stay focused, remind yourself that this is not a race against others. If you race against others, you are bound to lose, bound to feel bad for what you lack of.

What you lack of is not something that you can control, but what you do for yourself is entirely up to you.

Remember that the only person you are racing aginst is yourself. You may want to give up and feel that since it's only you, it doesn't matter whether you keep up or not. But that is precisely the problem, when you give up on yourself, you are not giving yourself any respect, you end up feeling even worse for yourself, and that is the loop of negativity reinforcement.

Break out of that loop, tell yourself that you will keep moving for yourself, not for anyone else. As long as you keep putting one feet ahead of another, you will keep on moving.

Time to change

I've been called many things: genius, promising young man, smart and fast learner, one who rises up to any challenge. The point is, I have achievements and abilities which many would die for. But why am I unhappy?

I realized it is a matter of perspective: seeing it half empty or half full really does make a difference. The worse of it is, I was trying to justify my pessimism with realism. That was no realism at all, I am fucked up, I am broken.

But I want to get better. There will be no help, because there are no one else good enough to convince my stubborn ass. But why do I need help from others? I already have the best one my side: me. As long as I can convince myself, I will pick myself up. I will fight to be an optimistic, forwarding looking man, who focus on solutions rather than problems, opportunities rather than risks.

I will use my source of negativity as the source of energy. My new optimism shall be the strongest as it is based on my previous pessimism. Putting the baseline at zero, every single step will be an achievement, and it compels you to move forward. Every little thing that you have will be a treasure.

PS. Sometimes, a person's smile, insight to someone's life can make you realize so much. It doesn't matter if the relationship works out in the end, because you have already gained something more important for yourself.

天下无不散之宴席。曲终人散后，梦醒了，才了解自己只不过是普通人一个。

Do not let your paycheck determine your lifestyle

Instead, choose the kind of life you want to lead, and fight for the paycheck to sustain it.