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Saturday, February 22, 2014

Emotional Attachment

While cleaning out my cupboard, I noticed that I am throwing out a lot of items. I have a guideline for throwing things away: throw anything that haven't been touched for more then a year. My girlfriend has some objections on that, as certain things are supposed to be "significant". I was just described as being emotionally detached recently, and that has triggered quite a lot of thought. From attempting to reason my ease in throwing "significant" things out. I just realized what it means to be emotionally detached.

Emotions are just attributes which you assign to people, items, events, or anything at all.

Being emotional or feeling something towards something just means that you have assigned more attributes to that something.

On the other hand, being emotionally detached just means that you don't give anything any extra attributes.
Which can be caused my many things, really:

  • You don't give a damn
  • You have been hurt before, causing a withdrawal to give meaning to anything
  • You are simply lazy
  • Other
I guess in my case, it a combination of everything. I am lazy, it's a pain to keep track of anything at all, so I don't give a damn. Also, if I keep everything logical, I don't give them a chance to get at me at all. This gives me a clear head and allow me to look at anything objectively and professionally.

Thursday, February 20, 2014

I have done my best

I have done my best, really. We have already known that it was too huge to handle since the start, yet foolishly we hoped that we can cut it somehow. Too much of misplaced trust, so much of inexperience; it was not meant to be.

The only consolation now is all the lessons learned thus far. Although it is not going to end well at all, we have all learned so much in all the rubbish that we have been thru. This, in some sense, is also an accomplishment; an accomplishment that perhaps no one else understands.